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ok so...its been almost 5 months since i last wrote..so the biggest news...I GOT MARRIED!!! yeah for me!! ha ha its been almost 3 months we got married on january 26. it wasnt anything big it was just a court house wedding..still it was really cute! anyway but the bad news of all this is that tim is now in afghanistan :( so sad...i miss him so much..he left 2 weeks after we got married...shitty but it happens. my birthday was in also a week after we got married and it was great! my mom uncle and tim and i went out to dinner at saltys in renton it was so nice. great seafood and great company! i really found out that i appreciate tim so much more now!! he came and celebrated it with me and we had a great time! things like that are what makes me sad he isnt here! i am so use to talking to him every day and now cant do that. he luckily got a satellite phone so we can text whenever we want but its expensive to call eachother :( i really do just miss him so much no one will ever know how much!! hmm..what else!??!? im now working at a bar in monroe bartending..its a lot of fun i get to meet some really cool people and make pretty descent money. what else can ya ask for?? umm..things are still breaking in my house. its now the water heater!!! it started leaking and now we have water all over our downstairs bathroom! its a lot of fun!! NOT!!! its just getting old...but problem is i love this house and dont want to move or anything. just need to go along with it all. ummm..in school as of right now...still trying to get use to it all. not really a school person so i just dont like it! other than all that not a whole lot is happening. i just miss tim like i have said and want him home asap!! he might be extended for an additional 3 months..he doesnt really mind cause its money for him but i just want him here. been going through a lot and need my husband/best friend!! anyway gonna go but will update hopefully a lot sooner!! peace out! :)
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well hello....so i decided i needed to start writing down all my thoughts again...life has been crazy and stressful so i need to write it all down before i explode. so lets see i wrote in you about a year ago...so much going on. ok well i am now 21 about to turn 22 in another month! crazy shit time passes so fast! i am still living with cheryl my best friend. we still have all our animals 3 dogs and 3 cats...its a zoo. i no longer work at cingular i have been working at a few different places over the year. but now working for my moms friend in seattle to make some money. i had surgery about 2 months ago on my ovary and had to be out of work for a month so money got really tight. luckily i had my mom and cheryl to help me out when i needed it. i havent really dated anyone lately. i dated this really great guy shawn this summer. he lives in monroe and we met through a friend from school. now its crazy all his friends are my really good friends. so things happen for a reason. but also i guess i am getting married in about 3 weeks to my best friend tim. i mentioned him a while ago in this that i found him on myspace well he wrote me back a little less than a year ago and i found out his was in the army and in iraq. it scared the crap out of me but he came home and i found out he was stationed here in washington at fort lewis. it was the wierdest thing. i hadnt seen him in 11 years than all of a sudden he was in my life again. not that i am complaining i dont think i could imagine life without him now! he is one of the greatest guys you will ever meet!!! but he asked me to marry him so that him and i could get some money. cause if he gets married he gets more money and he is going to kick some my way. cant complain about that. but honestly i havent told him that i have feelings for him more than friends. i know i should and i will probably end up getting hurt in the end of all this but i cant help it. you know when you get that feeling that you are meant to be together or something is suppose to happen?? well thats how it feels. he is the one i call when something is wrong and the same for him. he is there for me when i need him he was there for me when i got out of surgery and slept next to me on the floor to make sure i was ok and took me home and helped me out and all that. like i said cant imagine my life without him. plus my family loves him which is a great thing! they invite him to everything i keep joking with him that i have been replaced by him and i dont matter anymore...eventhough i know thats not true! but still its great to see my uncle art and uncle david invite him to watch football and smoke a cigar...in my family this is a big thing. even my cousins husband has never done that! tim and i arent even dating and they have adopted him!!! gotta love it!!! lets see...i think i have been really stressed about money lately cause it just seems whenever it comes in it also goes out. another bill comes up or its the holidays or something like that. getting tired of it but owell i need to live right??? christmas is next week and i havent gotten any presents. i get paid some money on friday from my mom and than some from my job tomorrow i think or at least i hope. but i took out a pay day loan for a $100 so gotta pay that back might need to take it out again to just live and get food and gas! but also it seems everything in our house is breaking down...our fence fell down cause of a really bad wind storm we had this past week....over 130,000 people are still without power luckily i still have it. only lost it the first night. but than also our garbage disposal broke and wont drain the water in the sink. its just been a crazy week. i think i got like 2 hours of sleep last night cause i have been so stressed. but owell thats why i am writing in here. to get all the stress out and get it out in the open!!! umm..what else??? my mom is doing good still living in auburn with my uncle she hates it there but i dont think i could ever live with her again. dont get me wrong i love her and all but we are better not living with eachother! i like my life without having my mom around all the time! my grandmother and i are talking again kinda but its because she wants to give the family buissness to me cause she is getting older and cant take care of it anymore. i mean its great cause thats more money but at the same time i still dont like her that much and dont want to be around her but for the good of the family i have to! other than all that life is ok...so far!! lets get over the holidays and see how it goes!! anyway so thats about all the things happening lately! i will update later!
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[06 Dec 2005|11:17pm] |
Have you ever?
1. smoked a cigarette - yes
2. smoked a cigar - no
3. made out with a member of the same sex - yes
4. crashed a friend's car - no
5. stolen a car - no
6. been in love - yes
7. been dumped - yes
8. shoplifted - yes
9. been fired - no
10. been in a fist fight - no
11. snuck out of your house - yes
12. had feelings for someone who didn't return them - yes
13. been arrested - no
14. made out with a stranger - yes
15. gone on a blind date - yes
16. lied to a friend - yes
17. had a crush on a teacher -yes
18. skipped school - yes
19. slept with a co-worker - yes
20. seen someone die - no
21. been on a plane - yes
22. thrown up in a bar - no
23. taken painkillers - yes
24. love someone or miss someone right now - yes
25. laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by - yes
26. made a snow angel - yes
27. played dress up - yes
28. cheated while playing a game - yes
29. been lonely - yes
30. fallen asleep at work/school - yes
31. used a fake id - no
32. felt an earthquake - yes
33. touched a snake - yes
34. ran a red light - yes
35. been suspended from school - yes
36. had detention - yes
37. been in a car accident - yes
38. hated the way you look - yes
39. witnessed a crime - no
40. pole danced - yes
41. been lost - yes
42. been to the opposite side of the country - yes
43. felt like dying - yes
44. cried yourself to sleep - yes
45. played cops and robbers - yes
46. sang karaoke - yes
47. done something you told yourself you wouldn't - yes
48. laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose - yes
49. caught a snowflake on your tongue - yes
50. kissed in the rain - yes
51. sing in the shower - yes
52. made love in a park - no
53. had a dream that you married someone - yes
54. glued your hand to something - no
55. got your tongue stuck to a flag pole - no
56. worn the opposite sex's clothes - yes
57. been a cheerleader - yes
58. sat on a roof top - yes
59. didn't take a shower for a week - yes
60. ever too scared to watch scary movies alone - yes
61. played 'chicken' - no
62. been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on - yes
63. been told you're hot by a complete stranger - yes
64. broken a bone - no
65. been easily amused - yes
66. laugh so hard you cry - yes
67. mooned/flashed someone - yes
68. cheated on a test - yes
69. forgotten someone's name - yes
70. slept naked - yes
71. gone skinny dipping in a pool - yes
72. been kicked out of your house - yes
73. blacked out from drinking -no
74. played a prank on someone - yes
75. gone to a late night movie - yes
76. made love to anything not human - no
77. failed a class - yes
78. choked on something you're not supposed to eat - no
79. played an instrument for more than 10 hours - no
80. cheated on a gf/bf - yes
81. felt like killing someone - yes
82. ate a whole package of oreos - yes
83. thrown strange objects - yes
84. thought about running away - yes
85. ran away - yes
86. did drugs - no
87. had detention and did not attend it - no
88. yelled at parents - yes
89. made a parent cry - yes
90. cried over someone - yes
91. been in a band - no
92. owned more than 5 sharpies - no
93. dated more than 1 person at once - no
94. had a dog - yes
95. had a cat - yes
96. owned an instrument - yes
97. had more than 25 sodas in one day - possibly
98. broken a cd - yes
99. shot a gun -no
100. visited lj more than 5 times per day - no
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[03 Nov 2005|11:25pm] |
(1) Your gender: female
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: straight
(3) Single?: yes :(
(4) Want to be?: not at all
(6) Age you act: probably around 25
(7) Age you wish you were: 30
(8) Your height: 5ft 8"
(9) The color of your eyes: blue
(10) Happy with it?: yes
(11) The color of your hair: blonde
(12) Happy with it?: yes it looks hella cute
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: right
(14) Your living arrangement?: on my own with a room mate
(27) Your family: mom and me!
(29) What's your job: receptionist
(30) Piercings?: one in each ear and tongue
(31) Tattoos?: 0...but in january getting one!
(32) Obsessions?: boys!! and caring too much about stupid things
(35) Do you speak another language? use too
(36) Have a favorite quote?: "toto i dont think we're in kansas anymore"
(37) Do you have a webpage?: nope
DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
(38) Do you live in the moment?: i try to but i think i look too much into the future.
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: hell yeah i deal with so much bullshit
(40) Do you have any secrets?: a couple
(41) Do you hate yourself?: at times
(42) Do you like your handwriting?: sometimes
(43) Do you have any bad habits?: smoking and letting people walk all over me
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?: how pretty my eyes are
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: this is me!
(46) What's your biggest fear?: dying and being alone
(47) Can you sing: sometimes
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: depends on who i am with
(49) Are you a loner?: nope
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: yes
(52) Are you a daredevil?: sometimes
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: i hate how sometimes i cant be myself around certain people or that i am so easy of a person to give everyone everything that they want
(54) Are you passive or aggressive?: can be both
(55) Have you got a ?: umm....
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness? my greatest strength is that i am a strong person my weakness is also that i am a strong person.
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself?: too many things...
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: love
(59) How do you vent?: talk to my friends or cry
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: sometimes i am cause i have to be
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: alot of things but cant take them back now.
(62) Do you think life has been good so far?: its had its ups and downs but overall yes
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: to be too trustworthy of people and letting my heart lead me.
(64) What do you like the most about your body?: my eyes and my boobs
(65) And least?: my stomach and back
(66) Do you think you are good looking?: yes
(67) Are you confident?: sometimes
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like?: cinderella.....scrub at day hot at night!
69) Do people know how you feel?: yes
(70) Are you perceived wrongly?: sometimes
DO YOU...
(71) Smoke?: yes
(72) Do drugs?: nope
(73) Read the newspaper?: sometimes
(74) Pray?: yes
(75) Go to church? havent been in ages
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: sometimes
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: yes
(78) Take walks in the rain?: not really
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them?: yes
(80) Drive?: yes i do
(81) Like to drive fast?: sometimes but only to show off
HAVE YOU EVER...
(82) Liked your voice?: sometimes
(83) Hurt yourself?: not intentienally
(84) Been out of the country?: yes
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?: yes
(86) Burped?: yea
(87) Been unfaithful?: unfortunatly yes
(88) Been in love?: yes
(89) Done drugs?: no
(90) Gone skinny dipping?: yes
(92) Had a surgery?: no
(93) Ran away from home?: kind of????
(94) Played strip poker: nope
(95) Gotten beaten up?: nope
(97) Been picked on?: yea
(98) Been on stage?: yep
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath?: no
(100) Slept outdoors?: yes
(101) Thought about suicide?: yes
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?: yes
(103) If yes, what is your record?: a whole weekend
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: yes
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: yes
(107) Slept all day?: yep
(108) Killed someone?: nope
(109) Made out with a stranger?: yes
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: nope
(111) Thought you're going crazy?: haha yes
(112) Kissed the same sex?: yes
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex?: nope
(114) Been betrayed?: yes
(115) Had a dream that came true?: yup!
(116) Broken the law?: not really..does driving fast count?
(117) Met a famous person?: yes i have
(118) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: no
(146) Stolen anything?: yes when i was little
(147) Been on radio/TV.?: yes
(148) Been in a mosh-pit?: nope
(149) Had a nervous breakdown?: yes
(150) Considered religious vocation?: i dont think so
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: yes
(152) Bungee jumped?: nope
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back?: yea
CLOTHES and other fashion
(154) Shoe brand?: i love vans
(155) Brand of clothing?: too many....
(156) Cologne/perfume?: Lilu...got it for xmas one year and loved it ever since
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work?: pants button down shirt and boots
(159) Wear hats?: yes
(161) Wear make-up?: yes
(162) Favorite place to shop?: bon
(163) Favorite article of clothing?: all my hoodies and jeans
(164) Are you trendy?: yes
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: yes would have made it so much easier
BELIEFS
(166) Believe in life on other planets?: hmmm maybe
(167) Miracles?: yes i do
(168) Astrology?: yes
(169) Magic?: not really
(170) God?: yes
(171) Satan?: yes
(172) Santa?: no..but those were the days..
(173) Ghosts?: yes
(174) Luck?: yes
(175) Love at first sight?:sure do
(176) Yin and Yang?: maybe
(177) Witches?: some
(178) Easter bunny?: nope
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: yes i do
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: that would be awesome
(181) Do you wish on stars?: i do all the time
LOVE, and all that
(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: nope
(183) Do you remember your first love?: yes
(184) Still love him/her?: yes unfortunatly
(185) Do you consider love a mistake?: not at all
(186) What do you find romantic?: having all the things like flowers and love notes and the little home made things from the heart
(187) Turn-on?: good teeth and a nice body
(188) Turn-off?: shyness
(189) Do you base your judgment on looks alone: nope
(200) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: i would feel bad but be the best friend i could be to them
(201) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"?: depends
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: yes and no...i am old fashioned in that sense
(203) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: yes
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: i would think so.
(205) What is best about the opposite sex?: everything...
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: they can be too cocky if they know they are hot.
(207) What's the last present someone gave you? money to put my cat to sleep
(208) Are you in love?: not at the moment
(209) Do you consider your significant other hot?: dont have one
(210) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk?: i would make eye contact and see if they talked to me
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
(211) That haunted you?: no one
(212) You wanted to kill?: cingular!
(213) That you laughed at?: my dog
(214) That laughed at you?:my room mate
(215) That turned you on?: james
(216) You went shopping with?: anthony
(217) That broke your heart?: david
(218) To disappoint you?: hmm..my mom probably
(219) To ask you out?: kyle
(220) To make you cry?:...david
(221) To brighten up your day?: kyle
(222) That you thought about?: james
(223) You saw a movie with?: my ex's siblings
(224) You talked to on the phone?: anthony
(225) You talked to through IM?:kyle
(226) You saw?: my room mates
(227) You lost?: hm...no one
(229) You thought was completely insane?: cant think of anyone...
(230) You wanted to be?:
(231) You told off?: my mom
(232) You trusted?: everyone
(233) You turned down?: anthony
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
(234) Smiled?: today
(235) Laughed?: today
(236) Cried?:a couple days ago
(237) Bought something?: today
(238) Danced?: the other night
(239) Were sarcastic?: im always sarcastic
(240) hugged someone?: today
(241) Talked to an ex?: the other day
(242) Watched your fave movie?: a couple weeks ago
(243) Had a nightmare?: dont remember
(245) Talked on the phone?: a couple minutes ago
(246) Listened to the radio?: yesterday
(247) Watched TV?: today
(248) Went out?: tonight
(249) Helped someone?:hmmmm....
(250) Were mean?: today to my mom :(
(251) Sang?: hm....
(252) Saw a movie in a theater?: about 3 weeks ago
(253) Said "I love you"?: to my mom tonight and thats about it
(254) Missed someone?: now....
(255) Fought with a family member?: today
(256) Fought with a friend?: cant remember
(257) Had a serious conversation?: tonight
(258) Got drunk?: a couple months ago
(259) Had sex?: about 2 weeks ago... :(
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[14 Sep 2005|11:09pm] |
1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4. Write down what it says: "absolute recognition"-phone book LOL
2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first? wall
3. What is the last thing you watched on TV? news
4. Without looking, guess what time it is: 111:13pm
5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? 11:11pm
6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? the fan
7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
about an hour ago, walking in from the drive way.
15. What is the last film you saw? The wedding date
At the theater? the 40 year old virgin
16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first? a new car and new house!
17. Tell me something about you that I don't know?: I met Nancy Kerrigan as a kid and she gave me an autograph.
18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? poverty and disease
19. Do you like to dance? HELL YEAH!
20. George Bush: is the worst president this country has every seen! get him outta there.
21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? Maddison or Madelin. (maddie for short)
22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? not sure i like cody or justin
23. Would you ever consider living abroad? yes and no
24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates: "you could have done better"
25. Using your Current Initials, choose a different name for yourself: Abigail Kathleen Coutrney Yesler???
26. If you were born outside of your era, when would you want to be born and why? the 50's because i loved the whole look of everything being so pure.
27. If you ran a store, what would you sell/have? clothes
28. What part in a movie would you love to play? the love interest
29. In your opinion, why do people suck? because they dont know how to be themselves.
30. If you had your own state, what would you put on your new quarter? a heart. so all the love could be spread...(cheesy i know!)
31. What's the oldest article of clothing you own? this shirt that says zig zag...its my moms shirt from the 70's!
32. What piece of furniture have you replaced the most? my bed.
33. What instrument do you wish you could be more than great at? piano
34. Record, Tape or CD? records! cd
35. What do you think would be the best concert ever? not sure all of my favorite artists together!
36. What's the best part of your favorite movie? way too many to name...anything with a dance scene is great to me!
37. What do you think is the most over-rated candy ever? snickers
38. If you were writing out your will, who would you give your CD collection to? david...that way he wouldnt have to come over and burn so many!
39. If you could only debate two topics the rest of your life, what would they be? WOMENS RIGHTS free speech
40. Out of your friends, who would you say you are most jealous of, artistically? Chris from work he is a genious he will design my tattoo one day and it will knock everyone elses shit out the water!
41. Most jealous of....intellectually? A lot of people i think i am a little dumb sometimes (hey it comes with being blonde)
42. What do you collect? i use to collect stuffed animals nothing now a days maybe candles?? i have so many!
43. What is broken that you have, that you wish was fixed?
my heart :(
44. What do you do when you're home sick? call my mommy or look at something from home.
45. Why does this survey rock? it doesnt really rock its just something to do at the moment.
46. Story behind your username? every since i was little i have been called babygurl from my mom to my ex boyfriend.
47. Current Favorite Article of Clothing? my pimpin aint easy shirt!
48. Line from the last thing you wrote to someone? whats up to josh through text.
49. A famous person you have met? Paul Wiley. nancy kerrigan
50. Favorite way to waste time? sleeping!
51. Last thing you bought yourself? ciggarettes...i know its bad :(
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questions and fun answers...
1. At what age did you lose your virginity?
--15
2. How much change do you have in your pocket right now?
-- 0.84 cents
3. What is the worst movie that you have ever seen?
-- too many to think of just one.
4. What tastes better to you, beer or hard liquor?
-- hard liquor
5. Have you ever had a stalker?
-- nope
6. What is your favorite food?
-- sushi or mashed potatoes
7. Do you sleep on your back or stomach?
-- all of the above
8. Are you in LOVE?
-- yes....but does he love me back??? hmmm...
9. How many times do you masturbate a week?
-- ha ha depends on if i get laid alot that week :)
10. Are you the type to read a book or a magazine?
-- both depends on the mood.
11. When was the last time you got drunk?
-- about 3 weeks ago.
12. What is your nickname?
-- ally. allykat, butt hole (matts nickname...dont ask!)
13. What do you drive?
-- honda accord '94
14. Do you talk in your sleep?
-- not that i know of.
15. What is the craziest thing that you have done nude?
-- Haha no comment
16. Who has made the biggest impression on your life?
-- my mom
17. Where would you take your dream vacation?
-- Bahamas
18. Are you an introvert or extrovert?
-- Extrovert!! i cant stand being so quite
19. Can you sing?
-- some people say yes some say no...
20. Do you have a sweet tooth?
-- yep
21. What is your favorite color?
-- hot pink
22. Who is your favorite Director?
-- steven spielberg
23. Where did you sleep last night?
-- My bed
24. Have you ever had to hide in someone's closet?
-- nope
25. Were you late to work today?
-- almost damn cafeteria people!
26. What are you doing next weekend?
-- sat-work, sunday not sure!
27. Can you cook without a microwave?
-- yep
28. Have you read the Bible?
-- yes unfortunatly that has something to do with catholic school.
29. What book are you reading?
-- second chance
30. Do you know how to whistle?
-- yep
31. What is the best concert you have ever seen?
-- LOL.....BRITNEY SPEARS!!! AND NSYNC!!
32. Do you tip after getting bad service in a diner?
-- yes...but not a good amount.
33. Were you popular in high school?
-- No, but i was friends with so many different types of people i didnt need to be.
34. What is your favorite decade 60's 70's 80's 90's or this decade?
-- 80's and 90's cause i was alive than
35. Do you like to cuddle?
-- yes...i love it especially with my bf!
36. Where do you shop for food and clothes?
-- nordstroms,old navy, bon macy's.....food: safeway and QFC and SUPER WALMART!! great prices for hella shit.
37. Do you still talk to your first love?
-- not a whole lot his gf hates me....owell!
38. Have you ever lied about sex?
-- about haveing it or something to do with it?
39. What’s your favorite cookie?
-- chocolate chip macadamin nut
40. What are you most thankful for?
-- for friends and family and for living.
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so the past couple weeks have been crazy and really sad....last weekend i had to put down my kitty screech. it was the sadest thing i have ever done in my life. i cried like she was my child and in a way she was. but anyway that night was really hard but again matt was there for me. he paid for the whole thing and i am going to pay him back. i definetly will. but it meant so much to me he sat with me and held me when i was crying and than took me out to ice cream afterwards. what a great guy huh! i really am starting to love him....anyway on other shitty things my house got broken into on saturday. they stole my check book and my room mates! what the fuck?? can i do anything right in life to make this all stop. now i am scared they are going to come back. everyone thinks its my ex room mate cause she knew where i kept my checks. i will find out eventually. anyway but thats all the sad things...its enough to make me sad. but its been getting better. i went to the river with my friend desirae yesterday and we sat there for a couple hours and i got really burnt but its ok cause it will turn to tan so no worries there! so yeah thats my life at the moment....i will update when i can.
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well here i am in the place that is like hell...WORK! its a saturday and i am here..why am i here?? i know i have to work but still i hate working weekends. we get a new shift bis in 2 weeks and i think i am going to go back to 2:15-11pm cause its only 8 hours i have to work instead of this shit. anyway...so last night got barely any sleep i had to take screech to the ER for pets...cost me about 330.00 to find out she may have liver disease. :( talk about being sad i was crying so much matt was there to console me though and to tell me everything was going to be ok. god what a man i have..who else would come to the ER with me at 12 midnight and also go to my house after work to watch my dog till i get there. he is so sweet....i was feeling sick the other day and he came over and surprised me and just layed with me to make sure i was ok! god what did i do to deserve him?? serioulsy he is the best thing to happen to me. i am going over his house tonight so he can cook me dinner! so sweet once again! than tomorrow get to see my mom and we have to fill out paper work for the FASA so i can get money for school...GREAT....NOT!! i am thinking of going to the northwest college of art! i am excited about that. anyway i so bored...about to be break time...so update when i can!
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[16 Jul 2005|06:05pm] |
1. PICK ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
i have too many and they are from acne.
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
pictures of friends and a cork board
3. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
so many different kinds.
4. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
at 6:30 in the evening.
5. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
sex....LOL JK i want my boyfriend i miss him and its only been since 1am this morning that i saw him last.
6. WHAT DO YOU MISS AT TIMES?
friends, boyfriend, good food and my mom
7. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?
my grandfathers things that he left behind when he died.
8. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
perfume,cologne, cookies/food
9. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
Yes sometimes
10. IF YOU DIED TOMORROW?
makes sure everyone knew they were loved and made sure grudges were put to rest.
11. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
David....EX
12. What is your favorite cologne/perfume?
perfume....candies for her and cologne..polo
13. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same)?
short and spikey or jsut short.
14. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO?
in an apartment with candles lit and a trail of rose petals leading to him on his knee.
15. DO YOU LIKE PORN?
yes
16. WHAT ARE YOUR FIVE FAVORITE MOVIES?
i have no idea....
17. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF GOING FOR YOUR HONEYMOON?
jamica or the bahamas or Italy again.
18. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
matt....sorry baby:(
19. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE?
use to...my first language was norwegian.
20. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX)(WHO WASN"T RELATED TO YOU)?
a promise ring
21. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE SINGER(s)?
too many to count or pick just one.
22. FAVORITE BAND(s)?
too many
23. WHAT KIND OF BOOKS DO YOU LIKE TO READ?
romance..comedy
24. FAVORITE DESSERT:
creme brule
25. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR COFFEE?
with chocolate in it.
26. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE PHRASE ?
Oh my Jesus!
27. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING :
depends if it was for military yes if he didnt want to stay with me than nope!
28. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
when they can tell you and than you can say it back like the "L" word!
29. BLONDES, REDHEADS OR BRUNETTES?
brunettes and blondes
30. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
matt
31. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
when people lie or act fake.
32. HAVE YOU EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
nope
33. WHO IS YOUR CURRENT CRUSH?
my boyfriend matt.
34. WHAT IS YOUR WORST FEAR?
dieing
35. SAY SOMETHING TO SOMEONE YOU HAVEN'T SEEN/TALKED TO IN A WHILE:
sorry we havent talked in a while been busy??
36. HAVE YOU EVER SAID "I LOVE YOU" AND NOT MEANT IT?
nope
37. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS SURVEY
talking to stupid ass cingular customers!
38. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
liposuction...that would help me so much! and laser surgery on my back
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| marriage??? |
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Your Birthdate: January 31 |
Your birthday suggests that you are a good organizer and manager, an energetic and dependable worker; attributes often showing success in the business world.
Serious and sincere, you have the patience and determination necessary to accomplish a great deal.
Your approach can be original, but often rigid and stubborn.
Sensitivity may be present, but feeling are likely to be repressed.
You are good with detail and insist on accuracy, but at times scatter energies.
You're a practical thinker, but not without imagination.
You love travel and don't like to live alone.
You should probably marry early, for responsibility is necessary for your stability. |
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| love... |
[15 Jul 2005|07:46pm] |
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so i have now been seeing this new guy matt for about 2 weeks and i think i am falling in love. he is so sweet and we hit it off right away its kinda funny cause we are so much alike. he is 25 and works here at cingular. but seriolsy he is an angel in disguise. just when i thought nothing good could come to me he showed up. its been great and i am so happy i am with him. anyway so other news ashley moved out...i now think she is the biggest bitch i have ever known. all of a sudden one day she said she was going to her parents for a couple days and wouldnt tell me when she was coming back than a couple days later she told me she was moving out. now that she has moved out some of my stuff is missing. like me moms plates that she has had since before i was born. and a laundry basket. its not the price its worth its the principal of it and i feel like if she didnt want to move out than she shouldnt have in the first place. anyway so now beth is going to be living with me and that makes me happy at least i can count on her and we get along great. ANd i also saw david the other weekend i went to his parents house for his little brothers b-day and he was there with his new gf..all i can say is what the fuck is he thinking?? i mean it was wierd seeing them together and yes it did hurt a little bit but i am happy with my own love now so its ok...but she didnt talk to me for 6 HOURS!! what the hell is that about than she got mad i was there. i guess david was getting mad at her cause he wanted me there cause we are still friends and it made him mad cause she was acting like a 5 yr old. really i dont think it will last til next year but they did just move in together so ya never know. i always thought there was hope for us but now that i met matt i know there isnt. i want matt in my life forever and i want to fall in love with him (which i think i am) and i want things to be like they are all the time.... so yeah that is my life lately and its not that great but i think its pretty swell.
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so i was thinking last night that i really should lay off guys for a little while and as i was thinking about this the guy that i kinda like texted me. it was really wierd anyway...so him and i were talking about how casual sex can be good but at the same time it can end up hurting someone in the end and i think i am so scared of that. i have already been hurt so much in my life. but as this guy and i were talking i realized that i cant look at what others have done to me but i need to see what else is out there for me. so i am going to start dating guys i think to see what is out there. anyway enough about this crap. this weekend was fun i took saturday off and my room mate and i went and got our nails done and went to pike place market and bought a couple things and it was just s great day. got a couple new shirts from nordstrom rack...gotta love that place! and than just a nice day at home yesterday. but at work as usual! ZZzz..... and i am waiting on the jackson verdict they just reached it so they will be announcing soon!
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[04 Jun 2005|02:22pm] |
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we moved in our new house as of wednesday....its so great! i am really tired cause it took like 3 days to get everything out so i was going back and forth to seattle for like 3 days. but owell i am in the new house. its so wierd no having my mom there i keep expecting her to be around but she isnt. owell i think this will be good for me i need to have my own life and experiance it on a different level. anyway i am at work i want outta here so bad! still have like 9 hours till i get to leave ZZZZzzz.....i want to get some sleep. my friend sadie and i might go to a club tonight but i dont know if i want to go i'm tired and have things to do tomorrow! well gonna go...work sucks!
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[26 May 2005|06:52pm] |
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WE GOT THE HOUSE!!! i am so happy i move out as of the 1st of june. its such a cute house. its a 2 bedroom 2.5 bath and a backyard and 2 car garage for only 995/month! think i got a deal hell yeah! love it! ashley and i are so happy its going to be great! anyway thought i would express how happy i was. so last night i saw david he came over to get his things...it was kinda sad cause it meant it was really over i mean i already knew it was but at the same time ya never know you always have hope. we talked for a good hour about things that have happened over the past few months. he has a new girlfriend i didnt tell him but it hurt to hear that. not cause i want to be with him but just because seeing that i dont have someone it was a little wierd. we both confessed that the first time we slept with someone new it was really wierd it felt like we were cheating on eachother. but owell....we are going to be friends and i am happy with that. i am going to get going..still at work...ZZZzzz....someone entertain me PLEASE!!
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so today is monday and i am dreading being at work. its been really fast today and its killing me. i also wore these really cute shoes but they are killing my feet owell pain is beauty! anyway so i found a house i really want to rent i am going to look at it tomorrow! i am so excited! anyway gotta go! calls are getting busy!
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[20 May 2005|01:16pm] |
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so lately i have been trying to find somewhere to live...i think i am going to be moving in with my friend ashley from work. we have gotten really close over the past few months so it would be great i think we are looking at some townhouses on the eastside or closer to work so thats all good with me! i know one person who wont be happy with us moving into together but owell he can kiss our asses for all the shit he has put us both through i really could care less! now.....well last night i was on myspace.com and i had the strangest feeling to look up a friend that i knew when i was 10 and havent seen since than. so i looked him up and he had a profile so i sent him a message and i hope he replys back. i havent talked to him in years! he was like my best friend and my first kiss. so there is a special place for him in my heart! anyway so sitting here at work and thats about it! boreing as usual! well i'm gonna go! ttyl!
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[12 May 2005|05:45pm] |
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Your Seduction Style: Ideal Lover |
You seduce people by tapping into their dreams and desires.
And because of this sensitivity, you can be the ideal lover for anyone you seek.
You are a shapeshifter - bringing romance, adventure, spirituality to relationships.
It all depends on who your with, and what their vision of a perfect relationship is. |
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| shitty week |
[05 May 2005|02:55pm] |
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so this week has basically sucked ass! i got evicted my phone battery died and no guys seem to like me :( as i just told my friend ryan i need to get drunk possibly laid and have a good time!!! LOL so yeah need to find me some alchol and men!! i think tomorrow i am going to thrashers with the guys which is good adam is going to buy me a drink! nice guy there! anyway at work bored out of my mind its like 25 min between calls and thats amazing seeing that its been so busy latley. so i am BORED!!! owell update later!
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[02 May 2005|02:51pm] |
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so i finally moved downstairs yesterday and can i just say i love being on my own....(in a way) except i dont have cable so i think i watched like 3 movies last night and than passed out. but owell.....anyway so i decided to dress up today and everyone has said i look nice. adam even looked me up and down! very much a perk for the day!! LOL so yeah i get the day off tomorrow and wednesday but tomorrow morning i have to go to court to deal with the crap with my grandma...not really excited about all that but owell. i have a feeling i will need a drink tomorrow! LOL and than wednesday adam and i are going to go to todai's and get all you can eat sushi. i think thats the highlight of my week...well deciding between the 2..being with adam or eating sushi! LOL i dont know i seem to like a lot of guys at the moment and i dont really know if its a good thing or what? but at the same time i think hell i'm single why cant i like them all...not sleeping with all of them so its all good! so i was told today by my friend wes that my shoes were ugly...now if it was a regular guy it wouldnt really matter but he's gay and so he knows style...shitty part..just got the shoes yesterday! LOL so there was a waste of money but he is only one thought so we'll see what other people say! well off to go and work some more... :( but hey hopefully get early outs so i can go home and sleep i am still tired from moving yesterday!
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